Love for all things Cal and Bengal.
Love for animals.
Rooted in the middle class.
Holding honesty in great regard.
Not holding money in much.
Creative soul with an unending thirst for perfection.
And because of all the above, an anguished creative soul.
A feeling of being ahead of one’s time.
Experiences of constantly being misunderstood.
Impassioned personal life.
Imperfect love life.
A yearning to get away from it all.
A wish to end it all.
Is it any wonder that I feel a fellowship of the soul with… Guru Dutt?
I have been on a deep discovery of Guru Dutt, both his movies and himself, for some months now. (That’s how I’ve picked up many of the above details.) And find somewhere that we are / were similar souls. From more visible aspects (like our great fondness for Calcutta and Bengal because we spent our early years there) to less tangible ones like humanism. This is the best explanation I have been able to offer to what has drawn me to GD (apart from his movies, of course). And no, this is obviously not meant to put me on the same creative plane as GD. I don’t think I could achieve in several lifetimes what GD achieved in one, that too, a relatively short one. With that feeling of fellowship though, I would have loved to see / meet GD just once in my lifetime. But that, alas, won’t happen in this lifetime either. Until then, there are his movies – filled with his beliefs, ideals, values… and soul.